My dad died, i can't tell people?

Hi, the same thing happened to me. I'm 33 now but my dad died when I was 11. In my teen years if I was on holiday with my mum other kids would ask wheres your dad? My reply was "oh they're divorced". The reason I didn't want to tell anyone is because you always get the sympathy comment "oh I'm sorry", that kind of used to piss me off so I would avoid telling people. It made life easier for me and that was what was important to me. I guess this is kind of normal, I look back at it as a self defense thing, you don't want to constantly have to explain it to people and hear their sympathy, as it is kind of upsetting. I know what you mean by the embarred bit, your probably not embarred though, your just protecting your emotions like I used to do, nothing wrong with that. It will go away in time as you grow older.